As I said in the prior post, I would do a follow-up to share the next part of my journey to overcoming myself. This part has less to do with art and more about self-improvement.
In spring 2018, even though I had improvement on creating art, I was still closed off and not open to the outside or even to myself. As always, I was a rather reserved person and never talked much when it wasn’t needed, even to close friends. As I started creating art though, I felt like I could do more for myself. That included trying to get out of my "shell" completely and talking more openly to people outside my family circle. I started talking more with one or two friends and a few other people I saw on a regular basis that I hadn't really said anything to (like my physical therapists that I had been seeing for over a year). It was a small start.
During the summer, I started doing research into meditation and self-improvement. Spent hours on it, watching videos and reading different things about overcoming your emotions and the ego. I learned a lot during that period and tried different meditations to see which I’d like to keep practicing. I focused mainly on heart-coherence meditations, where the goal is to change your breathing and basically put your mind and heart into coherence. I admit, sounds a bit sketchy? That’s exactly what I thought but in recent years, it has been proven officially by science that changing your "frequency" can change the way you think and the way you are (health-wise, etc).
Meditation helped me change the way I see myself and the world around me. I’m more aware of my internal thoughts and emotions than I’ve ever been. That said, I am no expert on the subject and still have to go further.
Also, I am by no means saying that it’s for everyone and is it the only way for self-development, but it worked for me.
I opened myself more and during the next few weeks, I did things I would never have done before that, Like talking and meeting people I hadn’t seen for a while. Might not sound like much, but it was a vast improvement for me. I realized waiting for an event to change myself for the better never worked out very well. I always had better choices I could make, no matter if they seem insignificant or not. I started making them and some things in my life got better.
With that, I started sharing what I make or created on many sites but focused mainly on ArtStation. I thought maybe I could motivate others like myself or anyone to give your future a chance. Opening yourself to other possibilities might bring you somewhere you would never expect!
Send me a message if you would like to know more.
Meanwhile, I will continue posting blogs about my art activities. Stay tuned!